When I first started writing my story four years ago I thought the hardest part was trying to slow my thoughts down enough to get thought to paper. Then after I finished that I began to think, no the hardest part is getting it all to flow. Then, I was sure it was reading the story over and over a thousand times to check for grammar and wording.
But now, I know for sure that the hardest part is the waiting. It's not even writing the query letter itself. Although maybe mine was crap and that's why I didn't think it was hard? Sure this is only my second time in over a year at sending out query letters but I think this time the waiting is even more agonizing than the first. I'm not sure why though. My story is better now, I know that for a fact. But is it brilliant or do I just think it is? Or does it just suck like so bad and I'm delusional and think its great? Or maybe my story is brilliant but I didn't spend enough time on my query and it blows the whole thing up. Maybe, I typed in the wrong email address when sending. Or maybe I didn't personalize that email enough.
Oh god, the agonizing list goes on and on. I've sent out 21 queries in the past few days and so far I've only gotten one reply, a rejection. It didn't hurt my spirits. Ok, maybe it did a little because the guy I sent it to I really liked. I kept clicking on his link thinking oh, I know he will love my story. But I got a big fat DENIED sticker stamped on my head by his agency. I guess it's no worse than what happened last time with the woman who I thought was meant to be my agent so I read all of her other clients books only for her to reject me... twice. Right?
I wish the first thing that came up in google when you typed in the word book was you'll be waiting anxiously for what seems like decades to hear back, if you even hear back from all those people you query. Some of the people I sent my query to I can almost guarantee I'll get a denial. Not because I picked the wrong people to send it to, I picked every agent based on their liking's. I just know some people may say they like fantasy but they don't like dark fantasy. I mean it happens. But there are some people that I just have this hope inside of me that they will pick me. You just read that short little article about them, google them and what they like and the people they represent and you just know they are perfect for you. But are you perfect for them? Oh this is a question I hope I wont have to wait 3-8 weeks to find out.
